Betrayed But Not Broken: How God Exposed The Truth

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🌱 The Unexpected Lessons of YWAM

I attended YWAM (Youth With A Mission) from September 2020 to February 2021, completing a Discipleship Training School (DTS). What I didn’t expect was the depth of revelation God would bring during that time via Words of Knowledge.

This post is loaded with insight—it’s a powerful one. In earlier posts, I’ve shared about people who masquerade as Christians but have hardened hearts. We’ve also explored how to recognize witchcraft, receive deliverance, and walk in spiritual protection. None of that would have been possible without the intense and transformative seasons I experienced in my walk with Christ.

⚡ Divine Purpose Sparks Triggers — Triggers Create Enemies

Where I currently live, the political climate is deeply divided—almost an even 50/50 split. I consider myself a truth-seeker and have always felt compelled to share what I uncover. The sidebar of this blog is filled with years of truth-seeking laid out for you like a feast. Since 2015, I’ve been planting seeds through social media.

In the church I was attending, not everyone agreed with the things I shared. That didn’t bother me—what I posted didn’t seem all that controversial to me. But I noticed a divide. Some openly supported LGBTQ+ ideologies, BLM (Black Lives Matter), and other progressive movements—yet still actively participated in church life.

In 2022, investigative reports and IRS filings revealed that BLMGNF had received tens of millions of dollars in donations but lacked transparency on how funds were spent.

Reports highlighted real estate purchases (including a $6 million home in California) and questioned the personal use of organizational funds by certain leaders.

People are easily deceived. Things shifted dramatically after the 2018 midterms, and even more so during the COVID-19 pandemic and the vaccine controversies. I watched people who had once burned brightly for the Lord become lukewarm—or fall away entirely.

🙏 Something Feels Off — Let’s Ask the Lord

During my DTS, we were taught how to hear from the Lord. There was a period where a particular person’s name kept popping into my thoughts constantly—so much so that it became a distraction.

In my frustration, I cried out, “Lord, I came all this way… what is this I’m dealing with?”

What I heard back surprised me: “Love spell.”

At the time, I dismissed the idea. It sounded like fantasy—Harry Potter nonsense. But after researching, I discovered it was very real. Spiritual warfare exists, and these kinds of attacks come with very real symptoms.

🩺 Love Spell Symptoms

Here is a list of symptoms I researched online and I had just about every one of them. Despite going through it all, God gave me enough strength to persevere when I didn’t understand what was happening.

Symptom	Description
🧠 Sudden Personality Shift	You behave differently overnight, obsessing over someone you do NOT love or someone who rejected you and trying to move past it.
😰 Constant Anxiety	Persistent nervousness and fear of being without the person.
😔 Loss of Interest in Everything	You lose motivation for work, family, and daily life.
🌙 Insomnia Hits Hard	Sleep becomes difficult due to obsessive thoughts.
💔 Depression & Chest Pain	Intense sadness and even physical heart pain appear.
💢 Love-Hate Confusion	You feel torn between love and resentment.
🎭 Intense Mood Swings	Emotions change rapidly without reason.
👪 Isolation from Family	You withdraw emotionally and physically from loved ones.
🧍‍♂️ Distancing from Friends	You stop hanging out with friends and feel disconnected.
🎨 No Joy in Hobbies	Former passions and interests seem meaningless.
💼 Work Life Falls Apart	Focus and performance at work significantly drop.
🪞 Loss of Identity	You feel confused, lost, and unsure of who you are.
🧲 Aware but Powerless	You realize something is wrong but can’t stop it.
☠️ Life Begins to Crumble	Overall life quality deteriorates—emotionally, socially, and professionally.
😵‍💫 Hearing Their Name	The person’s name is repeating in your mind.

🎵 A Music Rhema Reveals the Truth

One night, I found myself deep in thought, seeking answers about a troubling situation. I decided to ask the Lord for clarity—using a method I’ve used before: my MP3 player on shuffle, asking the Holy Spirit to guide the track selection.

The song I got three times in a row (less than 1% chance) was “False Pretense” by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

“False Pretense” is a song about seeing through someone’s lies, feeling the emotional fallout of that betrayal, and ultimately choosing to break away from their manipulation. It resonates with anyone who’s experienced a toxic relationship and found the strength to walk away.

The lyrics resonated deeply, but it was the music video that truly struck a chord: it features an Investigator fleeing enemies, aided by a woman who, unbeknownst to him, is actually working against him. Occult symbols are shown tattooed on their hands—a symbolic warning.

Here’s the crazy part: at the start of DTS, several people identified me as an Enneagram Type 5 – The Investigator, and I agreed with that description. Through this moment, I interpreted that God revealed that I was under spiritual attack from a woman (not sure who…) I had considered a friend and that she was connected to a cult.

That moment marked a second spiritual awakening for me—one that opened my eyes to spiritual dynamics I hadn’t understood before.

🕵️‍♂️ Smear Campaigns, Gang Stalking & Monitoring Spirits

As a Christian man walking in purity—no addictions, no medications, no STDs, goal-driven, and spiritually aligned—I encountered many single women in church who showed interest in me. But I wasn’t interested. I was on a Kingdom Spouse Journey, committed to the path God had for me.

Soon, I began to notice strange patterns. Every time I met new people, certain women I had gently rejected would somehow insert themselves into those circles. Before long, those new acquaintances would grow cold or distant without cause.

This happened too many times to be a coincidence. I realized I was being targeted by whisper campaigns—these women were isolating me, sabotaging potential friendships and connections, and in some cases, trying to ruin my name. It became clear that I was up against something spiritual and strategic.

Some of these women didn’t understand—or didn’t want to accept—that I am called and set apart. As a generational curse breaker, God has made it clear: I am not to be joined with someone who has already given themselves away to others. Many of these women had histories of sexual compromise or divorce—and yet, some still pursued me and then resented my lack of reciprocation.

Eventually, I had to walk away. I left groups, blocked certain people, and distanced myself for my own peace and protection. I would even notice awkward glances at church—friends of women I had once liked would look away or act cold, even though we’d never spoken. Their attitudes didn’t reflect Christ—they reflected bitterness, pride, and envy.

These actions—secret group chats, gossip, slander, and false narratives—are all designed to cut you off from your destiny, your community, and your calling. It’s demonic at its core.

✝️ Chosen & Hated — Just Like Jesus

📖 John 15:18-19 (NIV)

¹⁸ “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. ¹⁹ If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.

I cling to this verse often. Not long ago, I was in a group led by one of these same divorced women. A member of the group got a word from the Lord and declared, “You are chosen.”

When he said it, I saw the leader’s face drop—she looked visibly sad. In that moment, I knew. She was not truly for me. That confirmation sealed it: not everyone who calls themselves your brother or sister in Christ has your best interest at heart.

✅ Conclusion

I’ve been through a lot. The very people in the Church I counted on to be different—the ones I thought would stand by me—weren’t there when I needed them most. I was left to find my own way, not because I wanted to isolate, but because I refused to become toxic or worldly just to fit in.

Even in the silence, God was speaking. Even in the loneliness, He was training me.

Now, looking back, I see how much I’ve learned. The very trials meant to break me became the tools God used to equip me. The rejection, the betrayal, the gossip—it all became fuel for the ministry He’s birthing through me. I have a wealth of wisdom and content to share, not out of bitterness, but from breakthrough.

In a strange and powerful way, the Lord used my haters, scoffers, and enemies as trainers in the wilderness. But know this: every idle word, every false accusation, every hidden betrayal will be accounted for—not by me, but by Him.

God wastes nothing.
And if you’ve ever felt like me—abandoned, misunderstood, or misjudged—just remember: you’re not alone, and your pain has purpose.

📖 Luke 12:3 (NIV)

³ What you have said in the dark will be heard in the daylight, and what you have whispered in the ear in the inner rooms will be proclaimed from the roofs.

🌿 Final Thoughts

I don’t know what my enemies are up to now—whether they’re spreading rumors, speaking curses, or trying to cast spells. But let me make this clear: it hasn’t worked, it won’t work, and it never will.

Yes, their attacks may have slowed me down for a season. But I’m not finished—I’m just getting started.

God is not done with me, and no weapon formed against me will prosper. My calling is still alive, my mission is still unfolding, and the truth always rises to the surface.

And to those who continue to focus on tearing others down: leave me alone. Focus on your own soul. Repent. Surrender your life to Jesus while there is still time—because the rapture is real, and you don’t want to be left behind.

This is your warning. Not from me, but from the One who sees all. Time is short. Choose wisely.

🎵 Here’s the ending music. 🎵